I just get this feeling… like an uneasy gut feeling.. that no one will ever love me. Im a girl and people have LIKED me before, but i just can't see it happening that someone will be MADLY IN LOVE with me. Its almost like I feel like I'm not worthy enough to have this kind of love, and heres why. Okay so i am decent looking.. I attract guys. I'm not the most beautiful but I attract guys. My personality… I just feel like its bland. And i know personality is the most important thing in a relationship, so that makes me feel like no one will ever be crazy about me because I'm just…. average. Average looks and bland/ nothing special about my personality. Yay. And I know you might say "there is someone for everyone someone out there will find you to be the most amazing person they have ever met blah blah blahhh", but i honestly don't see how anyone would see me as the most amazing person and fall in love with me… cuz i have nothing to offer! And i feel like eventually the guy will just get bored of me because I'm nothing special and they will move on to something better. It's seriously depressing me that this is how it is going to be. I am just an average person, and my personality… probably less then average… so why would anyone love me? I honestly don't even know, and thats my problem. I feel like I'm a hopeless case.
And i know that definitely no one will ever love me if I go about this way of thinking, but my problem is, its like I'm trapped in this way of thinking, and there is no way out, and nothing will persuade me.. THATS why i feel hopeless.