My mam died in 2009 and It was one of the worst days of my life, Anyway this past Saturday my dad got married, big church wedding, his wife is nice, we've talked a few times tho I keep it plain and simple. They got back from their honey moon and I just can't go home, I don't want to, I just don't know how to react with someone else taking my mam's place, Yesterday I went upto the gate but didn't get in I just went back to my best friend's place. I'm soo used to us just being alone, I don't want a mother figure, Am I being selfish weird or just silly? I really don't know how to deal with this.