i thought i was the only one that was like this.......
My last boyfriend was abusive. i thought that was it.
I met my current boyfriend about 8months after my ex, maybe it was too soon... But you know when you know its right, he acknowledged me, cared about me loved me for me etc etc.....
We have been together for two years..... we have alot of downs then ups.....
I am constantly messaging him, if he doesn't reply straight away i send another and another, and im constantly asking him whether he loves me, or he still wants this ... if he goes out i freak, that he will find someone else, i nag and whinge. I don't like this person i have become. i feel im not worthy of anything good.
I don't understand y i always need reassurance. i hate my life being like this, i can't handle it, i cant focus on me, its all about him... I can't remember the last time i did something for me....
My ex was a drop kick, its like i turned into him and my bf is me (if that makes sense), my boyfriend has his head on his shoulders, owns two houses nice cars, then there's me got nothing ..... its brings me down so much. that i want a future with this guy but what is wrong with me y can't i seem to move forward....? i will never forgive myself if i loose him he has been the best thing that has happened to me.... i need some help...