It's almost a year that I have been single. Last few months I had a mutual understanding with someone and she was waiting for me to ask her the question. I didn't, for the reason "I am not ready for another relationship". I did court her but I didn't ask her to be my girlfriend, we had a fling for like 7 months but no official relationship status. My feelings stopped and I told her and she agreed that we should stop. After being no fling or some sort for about 2 months, I liked another girl, and I started making moves to her to fall for me.. AND SHE DID! It's been 3 months and I can't remember when I courted her but she agreed. Many of our mutual friends wants me to ask her the question already but I can't because of the same reason (I am not ready for another relationship) but I do have feelings for that I think that are fading because I haven't seen her over the Christmas break? I am scared to lose feelings for unknown reasons. Last night I asked her if she is ready for a relationship, and she said yes, she was ready for it. Did I mention that she had no boyfriend before? That's a big adjustment for me since she doesn't know how a relationship go. I love her, I know that, I swallow my pride for her so we don't fight. Kiss & Sex is the last thing I want from her. But I am also scared of she might get tired of me in the future and leave me. I think too much of the future maybe that's why I am not ready for another relationship? UGH HELP?
WHY AM I ALWAYS THINKING OF THE FUTURE? WILL SHE LEAVE ME? I WANT MY FEELINGS TO STAY.






