Telling the difference between depression and just sadness?
Hi all, I'm just looking for some advice.
I have been feeling extremely low and I'm not sure whether to ask for help, or if these are normal feelings that I am working through.
Beginning of last year i was going through court over an abusive relationship that had lingered for 4 years. Finally it came to end, I began to heal and move on and discover a new life free of past emotional and physical abuse. In march I met a man and we began dating. Ever since then my life was improving, I felt love like I never had before, we moved in. Started a life together and I felt on top of the world! Early October I discovered I was pregnant. We were so happy and excited and life couldn't get any better.
End of November we found out baby had died, and ever since I have been going downhill.
I have been angry at life, angry at myself, just a hormonal angry mess. I have been picking fights with everyone around me. My boyfriend, I have tried to leave multiple times for no reason at all. He forgives me and ignores the breakdowns but then I feel like I don't deserve the forgiveness.
After my miscarriage I got an infection. It lasted for a month and finally had surgery 2 days ago to remove the baby and placenta and now I'm empty.
I don't know how to get back on track. I don't know how to accept my baby is gone, i feel like nothing is left to do.. I can't explain my feelings because people don't understand.
I'm not sure what to do now.. Can anyone please give me some advice? I need something to look forward to, to re start, to occupy my mind away from grief. I don't know if I'm depressed or if I'm just mourning the loss of my baby..
Thanks for those who listen. It is deeply appreciated.
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