I've lost all hope of ever finding someone(love is a glove that never fitted me), so I try to concentrate on my college degree(computer science, btw) because, apart from being a necessary requirement for a stable job in the future(it doesn't guarantee success, but not having one? forget about it!), I've never been actually good at nothing, I think that the success of getting good grades would give me the strength I need to carry on with my lonely life, BUT, my mind is constantly being swarmed with senseless, obsessive thoughts that I can't control no matter what, so I end up being a failure at both love life and professional life. What should I do in order to be better at what I do? Damn, it's just that I need to find something that I'm good at? Damn, I never thought that my life would be like this: a failure at college life and love life... I just want to be good at what I do, I want to be a programmer, but these irrational thoughts keep swarming my mind... My idea would be that, when I'm studying, I forget about the harsh truth of never finding someone and focus only on my studies in order to achieve my dream... I'm not a psychologist, but the fact that I'm the only one in my group of friends who doesn't have a girlfriend really contributes to the fact that I'm depressed about never finding someone, but this shouldn't interfere with my college life, but i just don't know how to avoid it... This already started to interfere with my daily life to the point that I start crying and almost fall into a depression when I'm in contact with something that makes me remeber the fact that I'll never find anyone(songs, happy couples kissing, my friends talking about their girlfriends...). What should I do in order that I can focus all my energies on my studies so that I can have a much better life in the future?