Hi Guys .. I am new here .
Lately i had been in relationship which is complicated how i would see this. Let me tell you detail so that u could advise me . Sorry it's long description i think . But i have tried to keep it concise.
To begin with, i met this girl on internet (i was 17 years old) who is my age mate. I liked her at first interaction. She was sober in conversation. Good chats continued. But i couldn't chat late at night due to studies and parents pressure. She knew it and didn't appreciate it. I never OWNED her. There was constraints of time, so i get it all messed up before maturing the relation (DISCLOSING MY INTENSE FEELINGS FOR HER). She backed off. I was true in my feelings for her. I knew i was wrong. I apologized her quite number of times. and it kinda broke up.
We had "Hello Hi" occasionally . THOSE WERE MY ATTEMPTS TO STAY IN TOUCH WITH HER AS I ALWAYS FELT MYSELF GUILTY FOR MESS UP.
Quite recently (23 years old i m), i am pursuing professional degree, i started chat with her one day . All these years i waited for good time to talk to her. (SO AND SO I TURNED DOWN ANY FRIENDSHIP INTENTIONS OF FELLOW COLLEAGUES) ..
She was quite fascinated to meet "NEW ME" .. all groomed up, Lively one .. she was quite attracted towards me .. But once again things went wrong. She tried to pass her cell number to me but i didn't accept it (she asked me to join her on whats app but i didn't had decent mobile to run whatsapp :S). Then we had little fight over some issue. and once again she is TAKING ME FOR GRANTED .. i apologized her for issue quite a number of times. but She was all GONE. like she don't bother about it. I DIDN'T HANDLE IT WELL I THINK . on the face of it she said that she is ok . but she is not more talking to me normally. and I M ALL STRESSED . I AM NOTHING TO HER ANYMORE. AND I WAITED FOR HER FOR 7-8 YEARS. I DON'T WANT TO MESS IT UP . .
Recently, I tried to overcome HER . but couldn't control it. HOW TO REVIVE THE RELATION . AND STOP HER TO TAKING ME FOR GRANTED. and to win her trust once again . should i give relation some space and time ? my personal life is badly effected by this ... I can't concentrate on anything i do .. studies, work and everything else .I ONCE AGAIN GET THE FEELING OF BEING GUILTY..
Questions:
1. what should i do to make her realize that i am true in my feelings for her .. i have never been in any relationship before with any other girl so im confused in it
2. Lately i have been helping her to find a job. sometimes it feels odd to me . On one hand, we are not talking normally n ignoring each other and on other hand, i am trying to help her out . She will think of me as i cant live without her n making a way to communicate to her.. isn't it
(i am straight forward person. I admit i lacked MALENESS as in i should not have turned down her offer of number. But i m true in my feelings for her. But im now ready to OWN her.)