My fiance used to be very prolific in the way she wrote me love notes, texts, letters. But, that has dropped off a lot. I guess we have both "settled' into the relationship or something. I am still very much a note/letter writer...I have always been very expressive, and I know i always will be.
I miss the little expressions of love that she would give me like that. So, in an effort to make my partner aware of my needs, i figured i would simply tell her that I’d like the occasional expression of affection, in that format that i loved so much….the written word.
She was home today, not much on her calendar, So, today I texted her this: "Every once in a while I'm gonna ask you to write me a note...a love note... It makes me Happy .....Like Chocolate...makes me smile....I'd LOVE one of those today, if you have the opportunity. Love U. Am I Cute or What?"
Now, that is EXACTLY what i wrote. Stupid and gooey, yeah I know…but I’m a romantic….lol…
I didn't hear anything for a while...I figured either she was taking a nap, or she was taking the time to write one of the long, beautiful letters that she used to. This was about noon....At 4:00, I got a text from her saying "love letter on it's way...lol..put on your headphones"....
I was ELATED, because not only was i going to get something that might have taken several hours to create, but it APPEARED that she was going to give me an AUDIO love letter, which is even better! So, I waited with Anticipation. I checked my inbox continually...FINALLY, i checked the Junk mail...and there it was!
So, I opened it....and looked for the note. There was none. I looked for an attachment...there was none. I looked back in the body of the email….and there was a LINK to a Song Lyrics web site, and to the Lyrics of “You are so Beautiful” by Joe Cocker. Huh?
There wasn’t even a note in the email saying something like “this is how I feel about you…”…Hell, she didn’t even bother to COPY the lyrics into the email…just a short line-link.
It took NO effort. At ALL. This is a woman who used to write BEAUTIFUL things, long, and quite constantly.
She just cut and pasted a link, kind of like “ok, here ya go…….can I get back to what I was doing now?”
Is it just me, or would anyone else feel kind of slighted or brushed aside by this? I wasn’t asking for a novel. Just a brief return to our beginnings. Frankly, I feel kind of pathetic for having to ASK for an occasional expression of her love in words….she KNOWS it means a lot to me…you would think that she would simply do it once in a while…but….I guess I have to ASK for it now….and now I guess it’s all cut and paste….
Any thoughts?
MR