Hi guys!!
So, tonight I will go on my first date since my last relationship. I have not been in contact with her since we parted ways & by chance I saw her today since the first time since December & she looked happy, it cut me up knowing she has obviously moved on. I'm pretty sure she is seeing some one new (She is not the type that can be single for to long).
Thing is, I don't FEEL ready to date even though I want to date! I like the idea of getting dressed up, flirting and just getting out there being myself again but I am terrified of getting into a relationship.
I have met some nice girls since it ended, but, I was so wrapped up in my ex that I wasn't even nervous or worried about what they thought.
I feel so weird going on this date tonight. I don't want to be romantically/physically involved with anyone yet. But, I would be happy for something to develop overtime. Like, maybe become friends and see where it goes. I don't even feel like having sex so she is safe from me coming onto her hot & heavy!!! lol
Honestly, why am I doing this? Well for the past 17 weekends I have sat home & done nothing apart from feel sorry for myself. All my friends are hooked up & just sit at home every weekend with their babies. I don't really want to do this but the other option is sit on the couch by myself. I feel under pressure to do this as I need to move on fully from ex. She is seeing someone so maybe I should try do the same. Maybe I could like this girl???
I guess this should be on the dating section but I am still so caught up with the break up that it feels better here.....
Anyone else feel the same??