Im having this ordeal....i know this is gonna sound stupid but she fell in love with me cause im helpfull and kind....
Now heres the story. 4 months ago we met and played games then turned towards skype...She told me she has a daughter and i was okay with that...
Im from Holland she's from England.
We fell in love talking to eachother every night...sended eachother pictures of how we look and stuff and she's a gorgeous woman to me... Btw i am 32 she's 40...Here it comes at first she told she was 34...i assumed this until we brought ages up again..and she came out that she is in fact...40 years old...she bursted out crying until i told her to stop and said it doesnt matter im in love with you...thats how i really felt.
At first i didn't think much of it...i still am in love...but now i wonder why did she fell in love with me honestly? She keeps telling me im a listerener and kind and funny which is good...
Ive been thinking more and more about it and maybe im just a toy for her.
ofcourse i cant tell her that cause shell throw a fit telling me she hates drama...maybe thats just a way of avoiding questions that are on MY mind.
Since she has a child and didnt show excessive interest in other men for years..i wonder why pick me out of these guys and online? Im not bothered by her having a child btw...im in love i can deal with that...
She explained she never needs a man for finances and stuff or to support her and that she can make it on her own..Thats fine with me...but im beginning to think she's afraid to get attached to a man...and since im just online this is the perfect relationship for her... she can talk or text me whenever she wants and still can do her own things...Whilst i miss her it doesn't really show on her side sometimes.,..mostly im nice enough to listen to her at work rants when shes having a bad day...and noone else does im suppose to be a listening 'ear'...and i take it all telling her it will be allright...i can deal with it...thats not bothering me at all..
dont get me wrong i do love her and we still sweet talk on skype nearly every night about meeting eachother how were gonna kiss hold hands...
maybe it sounds worse we have only good times when we do talk...but on the other side im wondering if she needs a man in her life...or just someone she can talk to when she wants to...or maybe its just me and need to concentrate more on my own things..
We are gonna meet up in a week, she paid me a ticket which is nice of her. Yes we still have to meet and all thats why im not giving up so early...But i still doubt some things?
Not sure what to ask or discuss for example...about the future or is that too early anyway to ask her? How should i deal with this situtation anyway? Does is sound unhealthy and will this ever work out?
I guess any advice would be welcome.