I'm so sorry if this is really long, I just really need help.
Over the past few months an unlikely friendship has developed between me [21F] and a university classmate of mine [39M].
We started talking by accident via Twitter for a class assignment. Eventually he suggested we get coffee. We started getting coffee more frequently, and the duration of such coffee dates grew as well. By Christmas we were sitting down 5+ hours talking over cold cups of tea, which he always insisted in paying for.
January (I live outside of the city, and only travel in for school) we started using Skype messenger. For the first two weeks of January we chatted late into the night every single night. Learning personal things about each other, talking about very intimate things- even a couple of times the conversation turned and we started talking about turn ons. I'm pretty sure we both got off from those conversations- I definitely did. Lately we haven't been talking as much online due to finals and that we see each other often in class.
Then things got really confusing. I have a medical condition that causes me to have intense dizzy spells and sometimes lose consciousness. We went to a gala organized by the university and I drove us there (his drivers license is only valid in europe). Then after an evening together amongst the department I passed out on the way to the car. He stayed with me for four hours until I felt better. Holding my hand, kissing the top of my head, letting me nuzzle into his neck. Then at the end of the night we held each other, kissed each other on the cheek and he held my face and kissed me twice on the forehead but NO ACTUAL KISS.
He'll hold my hand when I'm upset, walk me to my train, take walks with me after class, tries to buy my dinner or coffee, compliments me BUT then he'll say things like "You're my close friend" and he never made a move. I can't figure things out.
Throughout this time I was reluctant to get emotionally involved because of the age gap. But honestly, it doesn't even feel like an issue anymore. I care so much about him. I just don't know where he stands. I'm so scared to do something then lose our friendship. I also don't want to lose the opportunity for us to work, if it seems like he's interested.
Men, help! Some insight?