Nothing left to live for
Case in point, tonight I sped home from far away celebrating my bro's birthday..After so much heartbreak, I had finally gotten myself numb enough to accept my status as one of those forever-alone types. Then I hear my brother's successful conquests and I blazed down the freeway, A) to get home to be by myself and suffer privately and somewhat B] if a cop pulled me over I was too willing to provoke suicide by cop. Possibly dying wasn't the worst part: I was only too glad to have it finally come. Instead, I made it home without getting pulled over! And now I'm afraid I'm going to continue through life, always being jealous and not having anything to distract me from it. Unlike other guys, falling in love is the highest thing I can think of! But I have to suffer the indignity of being eternally single, that's indisputable, I don't have the mental capacity to be what girls want or need so life just basically ****ed me over. How can I stay calm now? My younger brother gets girls easily, while I have to live life as a complete loser?! Maybe that's unrelatable so perhaps I can't find any solace....I hope I get pulled over soon!
"1,2,3,4.....The highway's jammed with broken heroes on a last chance power-drive!"
"Glory days/Well, they'll pass you by/Glory days"