Ok, crush on a boy, talked about him before. He is an old (not to close) friend and I know he has always been atracted to me and so do I, I considered him a kinda inocent boy and not a socially smart person.
After 6 years of knowing each other we started flirting and we went out once (no kisses...nothing, none of us dared), we kissed later a day we met on the street, we spoke of how we had liked each other for years and how weird it was it was actually happening, how we went mad when nothing happened in our last date, it was a long kissing and hugging moment, that night he invited me to his house and I refused (am I prude? a second date even when we only met as a casuality...now I refuse I didn't go though).
We set up a second date, but he canceled it with a shitty excuse and appeared less interested, I waited one week and texted (I mostly took the iniciative) in a flirty dirty way, he definitively seemed interested on talking, he followed the game but kinda rejected me but also said our thing could have been interesting and then asked if I wanted something more, a relationship with him, he was so ambiguous I didn't know if he wanted or not a "yes" as an answer (it would be great to have a relationship with him, but it still was too soon to say, I mean, at that point all I wanted was to go out with him nothing more), so I runned in circles until he said: I'll be sincere: I could go out, MAYBE have sex but nothing emotional...Maybe something I said made him think I wanted to marry him or any creepy thing. Then after some silence I say, maybe we could make a deal and he said: let's talk on weekend (2 weeks ago, hasn't talked)
still want to go out with him, I have noticed him nervous when he sees me, but last time and couldn'y do more than say hey what's up and walk fast as hell (got nervous too)
Now the question: what can I tell him so that we can see each other again without being awkward? Or how can I get my image clean in front of him?, I mean, he has a long work schedule out town and I almost never get to see him, so I only can text him (which didn't seem to work very well, it gets ambiguous).
WHat do I do?