Hey everyone
I will try to keep this post more succinct and to the point. (Nope, not going to happen)
It has been about 4 months since my ex gf broke up with me. Up to this point, I have decided not to contact her at all and she has not contacted me either. Since, we have met only on one occasion due to mutual contacts, where we were friendly to one another, but obviously, things weren't the same. We broke up on relatively amicable terms, but I was undeniably hurt by her decision. My rational self concedes that deep down, she did what was best for both of us at the moment, but of course, my heart compels me to continue to love her. Being rather introverted, I am the kind of person who takes a long time to develop relationships with others, as I was friends with her for quite some time before these stronger romantic feelings began to develop. However, I'm also only 17 years old, and so to some extent, I am a bit concerned that I am so hung up on her. While I can recognise this problem, I don't know really how to counteract it as it is rather unintuitive to fight your feelings. Are such feelings of passion normal for someone so young?
Secondly, I am curious to know how she is doing. It is her last year of school and I imagine she must be pretty stressed. I am dying to contact her and see how she is, as I still care about her. We got on really well as friends in the past, and I'd really like to start talking to her again. But simultaneously, I am a bit worried that I may get hurt if she responds with apathy. Also, I guess I suspect some part of me secretly and unrealistically hopes we can get back together later, when we are more mature and when I have for the most part, overcome my depression issues. My mind is in total conflict at the moment.
So I must ask, should I satiate my curiosity and gut instinct and contact her or not? If so, how should I go about contacting her. Should it be casual ie(hi how's school etc), or can it be a bit more intimate ie(I hope you are taking good care of yourself and that you are well etc)
Thanks very much