A long time ago when I was in my early teens I fell in love but we were so different background, races, social economic status, etc and I didn't believe that I had anything to offer. Also me being too loyal I knew my family would disapprove so I told the only girl I had ever liked that I didn't like her. Worst mistake ever, I've had other opportunities with women but again I always talk myself out of it. Part of it is I haven't fully forgiven myself for my mistake and I don't want to disrespect my parents while I'm living in their house. So I've moved out but it's still hard to get to know people and I still have my guard up. Any ideas on how I can move on and start dating with an open heart?