Well, I can give you advise but I'm not sure if I can refrain from being rude (I'll not actually be being rude, you just won't like hearing the truth about yourself)
I then sent her a long text saying maybe we should not meet and that I felt that she was playing mindgames with me etc
You've got some nerve. You've been playing games with her since the first email by lying with fake photos and excuses not to meet her. Then when she gets a hint that may be you're not interested or you're playing games yourself with your excuses, you send her an email acting like a beta male who has no other options... Yes, that is unattractive and frankly, she's got good personal boundaries to let you know that she doesn't find your behaviour attractive or wanted.
You'd do well to lose your weight that makes you act like a douche and then start flirting with girls on the internet and facebook. Better still, flirt with them in real life while doing good healthy things like amateur co-ed sports for instance (which will help you maintain your ideal weight) and meet your women that way. At least then you won't be making excuses why you can't actually see them face to face and having them lose interest in you through words on a screen.
Don't bother this girl anymore until you're confident enough to do something with her.
Good luck. Weight Watchers, Herbal Magic or Simply following Nutritional Health Guidelines and moderate exercise will quickly get you back to where you want to be.
Fix yourself and then look for a partner. It's the right chain of events.
Adding:
I sent her a text this morning saying a few things. I lastly said that we should cease communication until i come back to melbourne,
and If I feel right when im back, ill call her too meet up.
Do you see what you did here? Not only are you still not being decisive and confident or telling her that you will meet her but rather still being a limp noodle with your pursuit. What would you expect her to do... jump all over your half-assed attempt and wait with baited breath to see if you're "feeling right." *sighs*
Last edited by Wakeup; 12-10-14 at 07:49 AM.
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