I know for a fact being a lesbian is not any easier, I have a few Lesbian friends and they share their stories with me. I guess I just assumed there must be something about me that turns guys off, so maybe, I wasn't meant to be with a man, but I realized that was a bunch of BS and got over it. I kept seeing girls/women over and over again who just treat their men like crap, and I don't get it. Why would you treat someone you love claim to love like that.
I think one thing that makes this so difficult is that I care so much. I have friends who really didn't care of they got married or not, they were truly content, guess what they're all married. I prayed to be like them to not care. This is actually the most vunerable I've been about how I feel, I don't want to appear desperate or needy so I, make sure not to talk about too often, nobody likes a killjoy. Thanks everyone for your helpful comments, it's comforting to know to know others have been or are going through it. Thanks for listening to my heart.
Funny how they aren't looking and they find it. I've had trouble dating because I'm on the outs of a break up and I've been trying hard to fill that void. It hasn't been working for me. And I've never had a problem with dating before.
Waking up next to a beautiful girl,
Step outside and say hello to my beautiful world.