Please help me to figure out

[aksy]

well I guess you are right, but today when I woke up i decided to punish him, I want to go to a last meeting with him and behave like nothing has happened and then leave him altogether. what do yo think of it?

[lahnnabell]

I think it's a very bad idea.

[aksy]

why? is it

[aksy]

I want to die right now, he ignores me completely.

[IndiReloaded]

Just go for a walk, exercise or do something that takes your mind off the situation. Like helping answer *other* people's questions on the forum. Its a big world out there, people deal with spouses and children dying--you will survive losing this jerk-off.

Go, help someone else on the forum. It will help you too.

[aksy]

thank you I will try, but at the moment I cannot go anywhere since its my work time and this makes the things worse

[IndiReloaded]

Also, stop posting the sad smileys. You do know that your thoughts (which you can control), control your brain chemistry? Try reading some good jokes.

Here is a good one about a breakup text. Its for DeW as well, he'll appreciate:

Text: Hilarious Break Up Message
Brad,

It would be difficult for me to be any more miserable right now, I feel like the worst person ever. First, let me start by saying that I am truly truly sorry, and I hate myself for hurting you. Of all the people in the whole entire world, you were honestly the last person that I would ever want to wrong in any way. There is no excuse at all or anything that happened, so I won't even try other than to say all of us had WAY too much to drink, and I did a stupid thing. I can handle you being pissed at me, I absolutely deserve it, I can even handle the ugly words that were exchanged between us, what I can't handle is thinking that you see me as a different person.



It is weird, I feel like I just went through a horrible break up or something. The world looked funny yesterday, I couldn't crack a smile if you paid me, there are songs I can't listen to, and I just feel beyond crushed. I don't know if you meant everything you said to me, and I am hoping that you didn't. I know that I was wrong on many levels, but I am also hoping that this is something that we can deal with. I know it sounds totally crazy and stupid, but you have come to play such a significant role in my life, I can't imagine my days without you. It is totally strange and weird to say that, and you could say that my behavior didn't reflect that, and you would be correct. I hate feeling like you hate me, and I hate feeling like all of your friends think I am a terrible person, because I am not. I know there is nothing I can say or do to take back what happened, but I just want you to know that fighting with you was just about the worst thing I could have ever imagined. It was right up there with one of the ugliest nights of my life, and I would give anything in the world to rewind and fix it.



I am not sure if you will respond to this, part of me thinks that you won't. If not today, then maybe some other time. Also, thanks for getting my stuff together, although I think my sunglasses are still at your house, if you could keep your eyes peeled for them that would be great.



I can't even focus or work today, I can't eat, I seriously feel like it was an ugly break up, and I am hoping against hopes that it was not that and you are not done with me. Please don't cut me off, I really don't think I can handle that.



I am so sorry.



Elizabeth

[IndiReloaded]

And here is his reply:



Dear Elizabeth,

Thank you for your concern. I'll be sure to file it away under "L" for "Long-winded diatribes from drunken whores I couldn't care less about". You did a stupid thing huh? No...doing long division and forgetting to carry the one is "a stupid thing"; Mixing in a red sock with a load whites is "a stupid thing"; Blowing some guy in a bathroom for 45 minutes while I sit at the bar wondering if you're taking so long because you ate too much bran that morning isn't as much a "Stupid thing" as it is grounds for permanent removal from my social calendar.

To be honest, I'm not sure if it was more amusing that you went and degraded yourself in a public toilet not once but twice in a 2 hour span, or that you seemed to think that by saying "Well, I didn't F**k him" somehow gave you a clean slate. So forgive me if I couldn't care less if the world "looked funny" to you yesterday. Since your world revolves around blow dryers, golden retrievers, Prada Bags and Jelly Beans, I'm sure it must have been most unsettling to actually have to consider someone else's feelings for 24 hours straight.

The good news for you is that my friends don't think you're a terrible person, they just think you're the average run of the mill c*m-guzzling blond who commands about as much respect as your average child porn collector. I could be wrong but, it's pretty hard to respect some B&T chick who comes out to spend the night at my place even though she's seeing someone else in New jersey and winds up tongue-bathing the taint of anyone who decides 30 minutes of droning commentary on Colin Farrell's new haircut is worth putting up with for a hand job in the men's room. The good thing about being a guy is that when I eventually bump into the young lad who finger-blasted you on top of a towel dispenser last Saturday, we'll have a shot and laugh our heads off about the time it happened.

By the way, for the amount of time you claim to spend in spin class you really must be doing something wrong to sport the thunder thighs you do. Watching you parade around my bedroom in a thong was a little like watching sea lions mate. Thought you might like to know.

PS. I BCC'd about 100 people on this email.

Talk to you never,

Brad

[aksy]

that's awful, I think it is just my state )

[aksy]

he is just a b*tch

[IndiReloaded]

LOL, my search was very quick. Please try to find a better one. I'll come back and read it tomorrow.

Best,
Indi

[lahnnabell]

why? is it

Because you know that you won't do it when that last moment comes. You need to cut off this craving to be with him, and you start by doing it now. Not later.

[aksy]

Because you know that you won't do it when that last moment comes. You need to cut off this craving to be with him, and you start by doing it now. Not later.

yes you're right I just Want to believe secretly that he will love me someday....

[aksy]

I decided I will call him and tell him he's a selfish stupid ass!Opinions?? please

[aksy]

heeeeeeeeey,I called him and we will have a date? please give me some advice how should I behave?