Hi I'm new to this website and have love problems

[topazlight]

I don't understand why having only 5 partners is a thing to feel bad about? How old are you? I have friends who are 20 and started dating at 14 and have had at least 10 partners to date. Are you saying you wish you married the first?

[lovemohini]

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[basilandthyme]

Oi! F*ck off LoveMohini

[brokenhearted25]

Hi basilandthyme,

really sorry for my late reply cos I've been busy with work but yeah its probably not as bad in your perspective lol but let me try to define my heartbreaks if you don't mind.. my real personal story is filled with a lot of drama but for me it has made me the way I am now , an inner depressed ,reserved person.

the first time I ever had a bf was not until I was 17 . Surprisingly I didn't meet him at school, he wasn't from my school. Its like this , I met him at a New year event where I attended with my sister and met some of her friends and met him through them ( I have an older sister , and she is 7 years older than me).

That time I was only 16 and only ever heard so much about this *said person* whom I will leave unnamed for confidential reasons, he is the son of the Burmese Ambassador of the Burmese Embassy that time back in 2009 based in London and had been for quite a long time. So he was what you might think all rich looking, smart and classy right? well he was pretty ordinary , but for a 16 year old me, he seemed tall , dark haired, mysterious and exciting looking. Unfortunately I learnt that he was 5 years older than me, 21, so even though I was infatuated at that time, kept my distance and as he had come with his own group of friends too so was distant. One friend in particular who was the lead of the group of my sis's friends , introduced him as they were like close like brothers and he said his hellos e.t.c and appearance but shyly reserved away and went back to his own group of friends. After the event finished, I said goodbyes to my sis's friends and went home with her and even though that time, I was blossoming as a young maturing teen, I'd have some of her guy friends flirt with me but I only ever seemed to be interested in that guy but didn't see him afterwards and headed home....

[brokenhearted25]

[MENTION=81349]topazlight[/MENTION], haha not really I didn't expect to end up with my first love though at that time I had thought of it that way, bit of a conventional person you see lol but as usual life doesn't always go the way we want it to, no matter how hard you work for something to happen or the other person too, if it isn't meant to be, it won't last.

[brokenhearted25]

[MENTION=64115]basilandthyme[/MENTION], thank you for your advice but its like this ..

[brokenhearted25]

my 1st bf was not my first love, he was 1st because he was the first one I ever formed a romantic connection with even though he was a LDR online bf ( who wasn't a total stranger but that guy I got acquainted with offline and knew through my sister's friends at a new year festival a year before, he moved to Brussels, Belgium) 1 year later; yet I remained in London. Through facebook we re-discovered one another you could say again, got in contact and got closer online via facebook messaging and email, later we spoke on the phone and confessed our feelings that were reciprocated). The relationship lasted less than 1 month I would say . Never got to meet in person.

my 2nd bf, HOWEVER was my first love and whom I remained in my first ever relationship in person relationship with for a long-term, commited relationship longer than I had expected. Our relationship lasted for a good 2 years and 6 months solidly in person, and we had to part cos of coincidences beyond our control after my college life and struggled for another 2 years with LDR to be together again, eventually when the time came to realise no matter how hard we tried it was not possible for us to be together again , I had to mature and do the best thing for him, for us individually and truly love by letting him go and sacrificing him (giving him up), even though I'd much later regret this in life I still do, I broke his heart you could say but I had no bad intentions just had to do what was right no matter how serious we were about one another , I felt that was how unselfish love worked.

my third bf, was again yet another online LDR now this might seem out of the ordinary but he was an artist whom I was a keen fan of. He was a musician that I supported and listen to music of, a rapper/an MC. He is from a hiphop group well known in the youth community in my country and you could say I followed their music fandom online via my facebook account. You could imagine how active a user I was on facebook that I no longer use. Their music was mainly gangster hiphop music and I was infatuated by *this so called group known as cyclone* , you could say. He wasn't at all one bit attractive much rather looked like a very skinny/tall bad boy druggie . At that time, I too thought I had lost my senses as that wasn't my type to date such a person. I never believed that from a fan I would eventually been shown interest by that artist but it happened gradually, At first it seemed cool and I was over-joyed but with every up there is always a downfall, within less than a month, he began to come online less often seeming almost like he was trying to distance himself from me. Whenever I tried to ask his friends, they would act normally when engaging in conversations with me online and made me feel as though they were clueless to what was going on. He started to lie and make up excuses for why he was so pre-occupied and could not make time to come online or contact me, I found myself wasting my time and money on this so called ridiculous ldr online to a rapper/musician by initiating contact first and falling into the habit of believing all was okay. Almost like a headless chicken trying to save a relationship that wasn't there. I deluded myself into believing I was paranoid and could make it work, he avoided official commitment such as putting us "in a relationship* status when most of nearly all his musician/non-musician friends knew and supported us soon after, saying how it was "embarrasing" and how few individual homies of his would make fun of him and I... eventually he hurt me and I was blocked from his facebook and DUMPED, heartlessly without warning. I was the last one to know and if his one best friend's gf had not mentioned to me how she thought we had broken up I think I'd be in more of a mess than I am today. Not only was I crushed but I was very hurt, I guessed what I thought of was a normal relationship was nothing more than an over infatuation yet I cried and cried non-stop depriving myself of sleep and appetite for nearly 4 months over that jerk.

my ex number 4, was someone I met through a family friend, he was 4 years younger than me. He was not an online relationship but met in person, sometimes I hesitate and don't even know whether to consider him as a short lasting love affair* or a fling that I deeply regret ever getting involved with. His older sister was the friend of my family friend, and he was aiming to become a Doctor, get into medical uni. He was 18 and I was 22. He was a complete virgin lol, but very mature for his age and did not act his age at all. He could drive and looked after himself well like an adult man. Usually I would have never dreamt of dating a younger guy cos of the consequences followed by it, but I found myself drawn to his physique and his courtship of me, whom he obviously wanted to try it on with. Later I discovered when getting contact with him how he liked me and I found myself being wooed by him only to discover his dark secret of already having someone else in his heart after having made out with him. Not only did I feel crappy at the speed at which we met up and made out but used because when I asked at the wrong time how he felt towards me, he'd say how he liked me* he really did but I'd have to give him "time* for him to develop love for me*. For him love died after he was heartbroken over a close female friend whom he had spent his college days with moving away and getting another bf. Yet I still foolishly believed yet again how maybe he would change his mindset or his heart if i stayed dating him long enough. Yet, he was very awkward most of the time he was not publicly affectionate. Also I felt he was aloof and alienated whenever we were together it was as though the only time he truly felt warm as a person was when we made out. I never planned at the start for us to have gone as far beyond kissing as to make out with him but it just happened. Unfortunately it didn't last long for us either because after our 2nd date he was caught by his sister who was obviously suspicious from the start and told his mum and he got in trouble with them both and he woke me up in the middle of the night to break up saying how if his proud doctor dad back home found out he'd be in serious trouble. Wait until he got into uni that following september of last year when his folks would forget and he'd move away from home base as he had believed. As if* I was going to let that happen, I just really did not believe at that point his feelings for me were genuine and that he was a coward, so after a count of making out with him twice, I closed that chapter between us and thus he took the form of being my 4th ex.



my 5th ex was someone who I never want to even waste my breath on but it ended bad too .. and now I have completely lost all faith in true love.

[aadi]

welcome brokenhearted25
by the way what is the logic for this name ??

[brokenhearted25]

thanks, oh there's no logic , its just a username.