some 'advice' would be helpful

[amsterdam]

well she emailed me back, but im too afraid to read it. ha! okay, im gonna go get wasted, and then read it. good god im weak.

edit: hey, i read it and it was nice. she said "it was just hard getting
that email because the way that you approached it felt like it came out
of nowhere. i think that we've been lacking in communication skills with
each other." which i can understand cuz in my email i said i had just become concious of the feelings, while this is true, it was also untrue.... hell, maybe i said it just to offset my pride in fear of rejection. a tip for everyone: if you speak, always speak truth, not half truths, not hidden truths, pure truth, and you can do no wrong. i think things are going pretty good, and if nothing else at least we can still be friend B) okay ill try not to dissapear, and maybe reply to other posts if i have time. take care.

[updraft]

I really dont know why you are bothering with someone who has treated you so shabbily. What a waste of time and energy.