hey lovelost,
My heart goes out to you too.....I agree that she is confused, massively confused and unfortunately she has NO CLUE what she is giving up! But that's her loss...not yours. I know you're hurting but you also have a really sound mind on your shoulders and will come out stronger in the end. You gotta trust that.
Focus on the meds stuff you gotta get done, work out, get busy and try to get your mind off it. And I agree that writing that email would be very helpful. I am struggling with the same thing.....
Stay in touch with us!!
dp