Originally Posted by
Suzan
I do have an amazing family. Unfortunately I don't really have friends... Only people who used to be very close to me but kind of abandoned me .. Since that I've created this barrier between me and other people... I don't even know how to be social anymore... I like to hide myself away ..
If he's not being sarcastic, he can be a nice guy. He makes me feel like the most beautiful girl on earth.
He lifts me up sometimes.
He actually says that I'm a smart girl...
Sometimes he just talks as if he doesn't think that I am.
I really appreciate every single message you guys posted ... I just think I have to talk to him again and tell him that it's not all my fault that we fight.
I'm definitely going to read books on how to communicate. I know I have problems with expressing myself correctly, so does he. You guys helped me see that.
I know 6 months seem like nothing to some of you. To me it means the world...
Especially because I'm already kind of close with his parents...
Even his relatives in Romania talk as if I'm already a member of this family.
I don't think I'm ready to give that up just yet. Not before giving it my all to try to make this work.
I'm sure he loves me... I'm just not used to the way he talks..
His best friend (who is also a good friend of mine, my only friend actually) assures me that he loves me. She says that's just the way he talks, I shouldn't take it personally.
Also after we fight he's always the one who gives up on the fight... He says it's my fault but he drops the issue after a couple of minutes because he says he can't bear the thought of us fighting and not talking to each other.
Doesn't that count?
I'm sorry if it seems like I'm being naive. Maybe I am.
I don't know.
Does his father talk to his mother like the way he talks to you, Suzan? If she does then he's just talking to you the only way he knows how... it's the way he's been programmed to relate what he wants and what he's feeling.
Its good you're going to read the books on communication. It would help you as a couple if he read them as well. Hopefully you can communicate to him that you'd like you both to be able to communicate your needs/wants in a more calm and precise manner.
Good luck, hope you can resolve this.
“The willingness to accept responsibility for one’s own life is the source from which self-respect springs.” ~Joan Didion