Well, doesn't look like it's going to work...

[vashti]

In my opinion, your thinking is sound.

[Gigabitch]

I think you're doing the right thing. She's really flaking out on you, isn't she? I find it hurtful when people drag their SO's through the "should I stay with you" process.

[Mathias]

Thanks, you two, I appreciate it.

After four years, though, time for some quality time with myself.

The trust factor is going to be a huge thing, though. Trusting someone else after all this is going to be *really* hard.

I guess it comes with time.

But again, thanks for all the nice thoughts and advice, it's much appreciated.

[Gigabitch]

Thanks, you two, I appreciate it.

After four years, though, time for some quality time with myself.

The trust factor is going to be a huge thing, though. Trusting someone else after all this is going to be *really* hard.I guess it comes with time.

But again, thanks for all the nice thoughts and advice, it's much appreciated.

...and there's that thing you posted in another thread about the ex you haven't seen in six years popping up in my head.

Trust is crucial. It is clearly something you have with your ex. Let's start a thread about it...

[Mathias]

Okay, so it happened today (on my birthday of all days...yipe!) Now, I cried off an on for an hour, but right now, I feel a little weird, but honestly, I feel okay.

Is that bad? Am I supressing feelings? I keep trying to think about it to let it all out, but it's not coming...

You'd figure, 4 years, this is going to take a while, and I expect it to. Why am I not absolutely devastated right now? Am I still in denial somehow?

[Gigabitch]

It's probably going to hit you gradually- as you're more ready to deal with it. Just let it come slowly- you're protecting yourself. It takes a long time to get over someone you were with for so long.

[vashti]

You will probably have good days and bad days.

[Mathias]

Cool, thanks. I just kind of feel heartless right now...since it's been nearly 36 hours, and I'm still not feeling much after that first hour.

[Mathias]

You will probably have good days and bad days.

Yep, today's a bad day.

Honestly, it's not as bad of a day as I thought it could be, though. I'm a little upset, I'm a little hurt--but in the end, I look back on it, and part of me is glad it ended (even though it was harsh, and I'm still doubting myself a little). There were things I probably couldn't live with in the long run--actually, quite a few of them.

The part I have to get over is how someone could be here for four years, then just up and stop. Ugh.

[Gigabitch]

Why don't you watch The Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind with me and TDurden? That will make you feel better.

[Mathias]

Why don't you watch The Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind with me and TDurden? That will make you feel better.

Heh, I'd like that. But, unfortunately, I have a ton of papers to grade tonight.