Originally Posted by
Bundy
You really think nothing of what I did was acting like crap? I mean, I myself doubt that everything I did was right. I never had bad intentions, but I did plenty of things I'd do anything to change.
Being sociable, and especially to other girls, is extremely hard on me. I don't even have common interests with most. But I'll keep your advice in mind, it makes perfect sense. From the last 2 times I was near her, things between us have become very awkward and uncomfortable. And every time I feel that way, I put twice the effort to fix it, and just like everyone here says, it just doesn't work.
And I do go to a psychologist, although not very much. She didn't give it much importance though. She's more like "if it's meant to happen, it will, and if not, it won't". I guess next time I go I'll try to talk with her about this again.
And it seems like our future paths don't diverge much. It's very probable we'll end up in the same university (in my country there's no college), and who knows, maybe something WILL come out of all this. But every time I watch a movie, every time I play something on the computer, every time I wake up, I end up thinking of how much I'd like to have her there with me, above absolutely anything else... And just the thought of her being with someone else gives me the shivers.
Thanks for all the advice so far!