Relax... I'll need some information first. Just the basic facts - can you show me where it hurts?
I woke up at 5am with the most horrendous cramps. Felt like my entire reproductive system was going to fall out of me, if not somehow excorcism themselves out of my abdomen. Now from lack of sleep I have a horrible headache. Yay. I'm hoping caffeine and massive doses of Advil help a sista through the day.
So, so you think you can tell Heaven from Hell,
blue skies from pain.
Can you tell a green field from a cold steel rail?
A smile from a veil?
Do you think you can tell?
And did they get you to trade your heroes for ghosts?
Hot ashes for trees?
Hot air for a cool breeze?
Cold comfort for change?
And did you exchange a walk on part in the war for a lead role in a cage?
This chick at work comes in complaining every day. Today she started early, she complains about being sick, her job, her man and everything under the sun.
I HATE MY HOMETOWN IN POLAND , and now I know why I ****ed off from there !! I am looking for a hotel in my city that is small, has nothing interesting ... A hotel that is normal costs already 50 euros a night for a double room??? Are they ****ing crazy? We pay 180 Euro for a 3* hotel in the CENTRE of BERLIN ,with breakfast and really nice rooms . And this piss city somewhere in the ass of Poland , omg I'm so pissed off !!! I don't wanna go there at all, **** this village. OMG I'm so angry I wanna break something, I hate this city I'm so glad that I left this place full of shit. And I hope that when I come there, my friends will not start to talk to me stuff like "why did you leave Poland" , because I will cut their heads off. I'm so full of anger. I hate my hometown.
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My coworker is pissing me off, she got a super project to do, in polish, even though i speak and write better polish as I am polish... She is too but left Poland when she was 2 yo and all polish she has ,she got from her parents. She needed to do 5 interviews with some IT guys . And now she has to translate it into english . For each interview she gets 50 euros... But first, she now doesn't even understand what SHE has wrote there and asks me. And she asks me to tell her what does some things mean or to translate them to english for her! She must be kidding me. **** it, I have to log off from FB or she will not stop to talk to me . I have my own problems like this ****ed up hotel.
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This is it... I need professional help... My anger is killing me from the inside... It happens too often that I get so angry...
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Maybe you should try yoga or somethin'
Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.
I've read a lot of articles saying that behind many yoga schools are sects lol
Yeah for sure. But we are joking her and all but I noticed that it's not PMS anymore... It's like I'm nice during my periods and after I start to be a bitch again. I have to stop myself. Because I live with my bf I often land my agression on him,like today , i was ridiculous. In the morning I left few minutes before to be able to withdraw some cash and catch my bus to work... When I left I got sms from my bf saying that I left my keys and to wait for him by the ATM . But I was going to another ATM (different than he thought) and I didn't have credit on my phone to write him sms to give it a break . So I changed the direction,met him and got pissed because I would miss the bus to work. So I was so stupid that I didn't even say thanks, I just showed him my angry face ... I'm pathetic really, with such stupid things I'm screwing maybe the best relationship I could ever have. But my bf is so good (too good) , that he tolerates it and forget each time... Sometimes I want to kick my own ass for the way I act. The worst is, I treat the worst people that are close to my heart. I'm always nice to ones that I don't really know , but to my bf or my family, I'm sometimes the worst bitch ever. I really need some help , I don't know where this anger comes from ,but I know that the way I act is bad... But other problem is, I can't get to say I'm sorry. Before I didn't know how to say I love you. Now I know. But I still don't know how to say i'm sorry... It sounds ridiculous, and this is how I feel , but I don't know. And yeah this is because of the way I grew up. I am like my father. I grew up with him and I am like he is. He didn't teach me to talk about the way I feel. I need to learn it being already grown up. Oh it sucks... My God it's really ridiculous, but now that I think of it, I really don't say I'm sorry. I always THINK that I'm sorry, but I can't say it. When I try , I just can't . I can do something to say I'm sorry, but I can't say. IT's so ridiculous...
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Your father provided the example, but you're choosing to follow it. You can change this.
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