I'm really annoyed today, but I can't post why here. Lets just say I need to find my shovel. Grrr.
I'm really annoyed today, but I can't post why here. Lets just say I need to find my shovel. Grrr.
Second thoughts can generally be amended with judicious action; injudicious actions can seldom be recovered with second thoughts.
--Cyteen by C.J.Cherryh
This is how I can't say I'm sorry. When I try I get this plug in my throat ,the one you get short before crying and if I continue to say it, I'm actually crying, so to avoid to cry, I'm not saying it. It's actually the case ,everytime I say something that I really mean, I mean something about my feelings to a person that I really love or that mean a lot to me. And it's not just me who has this problem... My siblings have the same issues. It's all because we didn't have normal family.
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The girl I like(d) sent me a text message saying "I'm like so ****ing high right now." **** that. I'm going to hit on girls in the library from now on.
I move house at the weekend, ive been packing and packing and packing and still have loads to do, there is a whole room downstairs packed full of boxes and suitcases ready to start moving on saturday and thats just the start. My dogs are getting stressed out as they know 'something' is going on, I found my son unpacking the boxes i had just packed so that he could play with the boxes<rolleyes>(though that didnt annoy me- i had to laugh!!) and to top it off, when i move it will make me and my bf officially LD![]()
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Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.
Relax... I'll need some information first. Just the basic facts - can you show me where it hurts?
Ha, I watched that episode of Family Guy with my roommate last night, coincidentally.
She seemed like a really nice girl at first - she's in the marching band, she's planning on becoming a teacher (Again, back to that convo we had about stupid teachers, Indi) She likes to play video games and she's a self-proclaimed dork. The first red flag was that she is in a sorority, since those girls typically have all kinds of problems, but I gave her the benefit of the doubt. The second red flag was the ridiculous text message I got last night. And the third was - just for shits and giggles to see what kind of response I'd get - I asked her to go for a stroll this eve. Her excuse: she'll have marched all day long, but pfft, she'll probably be toking it up again. That's so disgusting to me. How boring and lifeless do you have to be, before you find your lips sucking off the ass end of a crack rock? She sounds like a perfect fit for my bro.
1. Given that you're like your dad, its easier to lash out on people that care for you, you've already adjusted to them and you're therefore confident enough to do it. You're nicer to people who don't know you cause given that you're partly self-aware of your actions, Since you don't know them, you don't know how they might respond to you, so its a built-in mechanism to inititally be nice to them. I bet you weren't like this to your BF when you both started out. You started doing this to him once you became a lot more comfortable with him right?The worst is, I treat the worst people that are close to my heart. I'm always nice to ones that I don't really know , but to my bf or my family, I'm sometimes the worst bitch ever. I really need some help , I don't know where this anger comes from ,but I know that the way I act is bad... But other problem is, I can't get to say I'm sorry. Before I didn't know how to say I love you. Now I know. But I still don't know how to say i'm sorry... It sounds ridiculous, and this is how I feel , but I don't know. And yeah this is because of the way I grew up. I am like my father. I grew up with him and I am like he is. He didn't teach me to talk about the way I feel.
2. It's more of a pride issue which became ingrained into you. Your dad probably got too much pride to apologize to someone beneath him. So you probably never heard him apologize to his own family as he the head of the household. Although you'd probably hear him apologize to other people.
He who laughs last, thinks the slowest
PP is messed up? what a crazy idea!
The male is a domestic animal which, if treated with firmness, can be trained to do most things
God, so atrocious in the Old Testament, so attractive in the New--the Jekyl and Hyde of sacred romance.
-Mark Twain
If people are good only because they fear punishment and hope for reward, then we are a sorry lot indeed.
-Albert Einstein
I was also brought up with the same environments. apologies are not exactly our thing either. If we feel guilty about what happened, we usually do something else to compensate for it.
Then I got determined not to do this to my own family, so I forced myself to change as an example to my child.
He who laughs last, thinks the slowest
August 27th, 2010, and I still don't have a million dollars.