114 days. I have waited. Begged. Pretended. Discovered. Tortured myself. 114 days. Not to mention most of the last 2 years. 114 days this year alone. What is wrong with me? What a waste of time and energy. It took her 7 days to meet someone else. Me? 114 days and 3 women I pushed away because I "love" my ex still. Such a waste. Such a waste.