well i have to admit that during the past few replies i was a bit harsher on you. currently, i'm chasing this girl and when i feel that i put more effort into making something work and i dont' get the same reply, i look at this from that angle.
true, you might love or had loved your bf, whatever you say or feel, but what are you going to do about it now? he doesn't really trust you or rather it seems that he doesn't really want to have the same relationship with you. if this is the way that he feels, there is most likely nothing that you can do but respect his wishes and be a good friend. it's impossible to change the past, but it's not preventable to change the future. raverboy
...this is just my perspective on the situation...