Can't figure out the girl that means so much to me (Long read, but please help)

[misombra]

this thread is loco.

[clynn]

what does that mean? Loco?

[vashti]

Loco means crazy, I believe.

[King_For_A_DAy]

How is it crazy?

[toohot4pants]

she has issues...there's probably not much you can do except be there to support her. family issues and self-esteem issues are probably best worked through with counselors, the family members, and the individual self.

[King_For_A_DAy]

she has issues...there's probably not much you can do except be there to support her. family issues and self-esteem issues are probably best worked through with counselors, the family members, and the individual self.

Well, when she told me she sees a counselor once ever 2 weeks for a 45 minute session, I told her that it was good and it probably helps. She said it does, until the next day, then it doesn't really help.

[vashti]

Some people like to wallow in their misery.

About this relationship: what's in it for you? Or do you enjoy people who require this much energy? Because some people do, you know. It makes them feel heroic. (Be careful not to dismiss this thought too quickly.)

[clynn]

Some people like to wallow in their misery.

About this relationship: what's in it for you? Or do you enjoy people who require this much energy? Because some people do, you know. It makes them feel heroic. (Be careful not to dismiss this thought too quickly.)

Yes, give this some thought.

[King_For_A_DAy]

Some people like to wallow in their misery.

About this relationship: what's in it for you? Or do you enjoy people who require this much energy? Because some people do, you know. It makes them feel heroic. (Be careful not to dismiss this thought too quickly.)

Well, honestly, I just found out about all of these issues this month. I've felt this way about her since October/November, these feelings. What's in it for me is one of the most amazing girls I've met.

[Tone]

You're 16? 17?

You shouldn't be writing 9 page essays about a girl.

[King_For_A_DAy]

Man, this poor girl...


Emily: i don't know why i'm so angry!
Emily: or so sad!
Emily: i just am!
Mike: so you're angry and sad everyday?
Emily: for a period of time at least once a day, yeah
Emily: i don't make any sense
Emily: and it feels stupid even saying it
Emily: i'm just worried about everything

Emily: i think i just don't like myself a whole lot, so it makes things worse
Mike: i think you're great
Mike: obviously.
Emily: i'm not
Emily: pretty soon you'll realize it

Emily: my own parents are sick of me for it!
Emily: and there's no reason you should even be thinking about it
Emily: i shouldn't have said anything
Emily: i hate myself for even making you talk about this
Emily: because it's a waste of time

Emily: obviously i'm ridiculous
Emily: and when people realize it, they realize i'm not worth it

Emily: no seriously,
Emily: i go from happy to angry to sad without having any reason
Emily: i'm just a pain to deal with
Emily: i really am
Emily: and i'm telling you
Emily: you're going to realize it
Emily: i mean already, you ahve to be starting to see it
Emily: i'm angry for no reason at all
Emily: no one wants to be around that
Mike: and i'm still around you
Emily: one day you're going to see it
Mike: then what?
Emily: you'll leave, probably
Emily: and i won't blame you at all
Mike: i promise i won't leave.

Emily: nobody wants to deal with this
Emily: i totally understand that
Mike: emily
Mike: you're fine
Emily: yeah okay
Emily: but i'm just annoying as hell, i annoy myself crazy
Emily: who wants to be around it?


Emily: ahhh
Emily: i feel stupid.
Mike: don't feel stupid around me
Emily: i think i feel most stupid around you, because you know me really well
Emily: so you know the full depths of my stupidity