Do war damaged women confidence too in your country? You said thats its unnatural to women to insist. But before you said that you dont have to insist - even more you said that "he even asked me sometimes to do it for me." Are you complicating things now?
You remind me one girl - she was like ten times better than me but was shy even to talk to me.
Now you wrote all those good things that you did for a man and how lost he would be without you. Basicaly you been like saint all your life. Yet you have problem to openly tell your fantazy to a guy who owns you his life.
What can i tell, i am shy when it comes to such things.
HeartIsAching said that you made good point that Serbian women don't get oral sex, so i just said that they do, we are not in Afghanistan. And it is awkward. haha