A different Journey - going for the friend

[whaywardj]

*besos*
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[Junsui]

*kisses*



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[whaywardj]

::reins his unbridled hopes back to a rough approximation of reality by sheer force of will::

[Junsui]

lol oh Hayward. You always make me giggle.

[Journey]

So I went out with the friend last night. At the end of the evening I gave her a hug and started walking away. She then wanted to accompany me to my car. At my car she went in for the kill. Its pretty clear she digs me. I guess she did'nt want to see me "as a friend" like she said on the phone a week ago - when I told her that I still have feelings for my ex.
Last night I did think about my ex.

[Rosebud]

Well I'm glad she's into you. I would still tread lightly with her, just for the fact you told her about your ex and how you feel about all that and she may have this "well I can get his mind of her" attitude..

But I'm happy for you! I hope things go well.

[misombra]

journ, this story is getting more and more twisted.

please continue...

[Journey]

journ, this story is getting more and more twisted.

please continue...

Well her intentions are pretty obvious. She kissed me and I was open to it - but I did not "give" - I only "received". She wants to see me again. There was no talk about my ex.
I learned alot last night though, about the political and social situation where my ex is from. The friend is also from Brazil. While I have been raised in an environment where I was always provided for, security was not an issue. These girls worked from a very early age age, and salaries are low.
Basically I think they tend to place security higher on the list of selection criteria for a mate. She said that being here is like a dream. Maybe I rank lower on security than the man she is currently with.
I don't mean to brag, but maybe one day she will realize that she could have had it all with me ("any way you want it") through all the ways I wanted to "send her my love".

[misombra]

i don't know about that theory. i was born poor. i had to work at a very young age for very low wages too. but now i provide my own security and don't depend on someone else to do it. on the other hand there are people who are secure and have a lot of money that still depend on someone else to take care of them.

[Tone]

You lucky son of a...

Two Brazilian women in a row?! Share the love!!

[Journey]

You lucky son of a...

Two Brazilian women in a row?! Share the love!!

LOL Dude..
But the thing is, with my ex I was like in some kind of trance around her. With the friend its not like that. She can probably sense it too.. she'll have to work for it.

[Tone]

It's probably the old sayin - you want what you can't have.

The friend is available to you - thus less desirable as the ex who no longer wants to be with you.