
Originally Posted by
FadeToBlack
Cain, I did that before. She went into crisis. Doctors didn't help. Parents wouldn't handle it.
shh!, No, this is definitely not the reason. And I know what I want to do, I just can't. That's my whole f* problem.
I know what I say is contradictory and whiny etc. Ultimately I need to share whats eating me from the inside, because I can't really tell anyone since we both know the same ppl and this would further complicate matters. And if in the mean time a new possible outcome crystallizes in me through your comments, the better!
I think you need to get into counselling YOURSELF. I'm not kidding. You need to talk to some who deals with this stuff professionally who can put your head back on straight.
You are codependent in this relationship. You are getting desperate (I don't blame you at all) & you need to hear workable options for how you can help this gal without losing yourself in the process.
Please, for your own sake, talk to your doctor & ask for a referral.
Second thoughts can generally be amended with judicious action; injudicious actions can seldom be recovered with second thoughts.
--Cyteen by C.J.Cherryh