I got dumped

[Charlie Boy II]

Really? I come off as older? I thought if anything I'd sound younger.

[shh!]

You sound too secure to be mistaken for younger.

[Charlie Boy II]

Well shucks.

[starbuck]

You sound fairly mature to me too, CB. Humorous in a youthful way, but grounded too.

But I swear to god, more often than not I'm picturing you as that big muscly dragon you have as your avatar.

[lesa]

Yeah you do sound more mature and therefore older for a man. You sound very sure of yourself and is a realist.

[Charlie Boy II]

I feel very odd. Mentally I'm alright. I've barely even thought about Kristin over the last couple of days. I haven't told many people either. Most of my friends probably still think we're together. But I've got kind of a physical pain in my chest and I can't get off the couch. I stayed up all night last night. I just sit here and watch movies and surf the internet. Today was a beautiful day and there was waves but I didn't leave the house. I've got this debilitating apathy.

[agatha]

Wawa Charlie Boy!

I never thought that you would be dumped by a girl. I thought you were the one who dumped girls.

[Charlie Boy II]

and you are??

[Only-virgins]

Charlie Boy II got dumped? never heard of him.

[IndiReloaded]

Early days, I thought CB was late 20s/early 30s. FWIW.

[shh!]

I feel very odd. Mentally I'm alright. I've barely even thought about Kristin over the last couple of days. I haven't told many people either. Most of my friends probably still think we're together. But I've got kind of a physical pain in my chest and I can't get off the couch. I stayed up all night last night. I just sit here and watch movies and surf the internet. Today was a beautiful day and there was waves but I didn't leave the house. I've got this debilitating apathy.

Wow, you are almost expert at refusing to grieve. Have you ever experienced loss before?

[Charlie Boy II]

Yes I suppose I don't really grieve about things in the way other people do. The breakup has just given me a really unfocused sense of malaise and a sort of ache behind my ribs. I almost never think about the break-up itself, or even about Kristin for that matter. I'm not conciously supressing anything though.

[misombra]

yeah, whoever said you were a stone was right.

but there's something there... are you sure you want to give it up like that?

[Charlie Boy II]

I don't know. If I really fought for it I think I could get her back, I just don't know if it's a good idea. For whatever reason, I was making her unhappy which is a horrible thought. Ah god, who knows. I don't think I've really come to terms with it yet. I told a friend just before and just saying it sounded so odd to my own ears, like it's not really happening. I felt like was making it up or something.

[misombra]

have you talked to her since the break up convo?