Really. I do not listen to people who say that intentions do not matter. Intentions do matter. They can not undo any feelings and good intentions can never compensate bad actions. But they should matter to everyone, no matter what the subject is. Every single human being has his flaws and will eventually hurt other human beings. Everyone will make mistakes they regret. Hurt can not be undone. I do not expect that the fact that I did not intend and did not want to hurt my boyfriend makes anyone say ''you poor thing, what you have been through, he should come back''. Offcourse not. I am not always as stupid as I have been with my boyfriend. I just have a hard time letting it go and forgiving myself. And I most certainly have a hard time letting him go if he keeps calling me and telling me we could get back together in the future. I would not keep thinking about it if he would have said ''Í do not want you anymore''. If you can not bring up any understanding for that, then you are certainly as incompetent in being understanding as I have been.