Back to ground zero. Literally feeling nothing from my ex (except maybe some animosity) I sent her an email asking how she was doing. Of course she said she missed her friend. We chatted for a while and I told her I would always be a friend to her in whatever capacity I can, but I don't want to know anything about her relationship and she said she understood. I really just wanted to know if she'd seen the doctor regarding her potential medical problem.
I cannot wait until I get another job out of here. At that point, I really can put the thoughts of her behind me. I know I need to just see her as a coworker, but that's impossible right now as I'm still not over her and I haven't been blessed with indifference towards her. Time seems to be the only thing that is on my side in dealing with this. I don't really even feel all that "set back" in talking to her today. I'm not worse off than I've been this week anyway.