Yes, maybe a few white lies.
I know her sis doesn't know for sure, she would crucify her being a social worker herself. Hence when she moves out in Feb.
The story is so romantic, one of my friends described it like a movie! The ex before was a girl i met travelling south america for 3 months..left for UK with the thought id never see her again, then got a job in France that landed on my lap free everything, food, room, zero expenditure. It enabled me to go back and live with her for another 3 months. Though immigration plans failed due to my problems, that was romantic. Though I think my current situation tops that even though it didn't involve travelling, it involved a person who took me at face value fully knowing I was an addict and loved being with me for me. If only she knew!
Yes, I've had some fairytale romantic encounters in my time
Question about florist.....
Isn't through the post just as anonymous? I don't need to put my return add. on the package(I can, but wont, will send recorded), don't know how it is in N.America. Inside is a card with little bits of jewellery and an engraved box. If she got it from a florist her sister is still going to want to know whats in the parcel, who flowers are from apparently she is nosey. Though it reveals none of my full identity it has pics and my first name to friends though (Tommy) and her sis never worked in substance misuse so doesn't know me from Adam. I just dont want to leave her with unnecessary awkward explaining to do as I don't know what shes told her sis about a man, whether she made a fake name etc, its likely she will have to pick up from post office as she'll be at work prob. That could be a saving grace. That would also mean she wouldn't be home for flower delivery. Yes I'm aware I'm over thinking everything.
I did ask her out, very softly with no pressure for a festive drink, and said if not then I'll prove myself in february. I did this in a video for her where I sing happy birthday, wish her well, tell her I'm doing well, added her favourite song
I'm quite a good editor (studied film) I just watched the final edit and it brang a tear to my eye! A congratulations card for her new job made her cry!! so if this doesn't make her emotional then nothing will! Popped the video memory card in the jewellery box for extra woo factor. Little things
Yes, it was always drugs and women, don't want to be dependant on her, just couldn't help fall, at the same time almost...was magical. Cheesy I know. Though feels so natural....
Woody two quick questions -
1. What text from her was warm? Last one I had was weeks ago, it did say she missed me and that she wants me to teach her romance hehe. But since then I sent her those texts saying how I feel with no reply (3+ weeks ago )
2. What sentance of PCmaster did you find relevant? About us meeting in dark times?
- - - Updated - - -
This is a question for both you guys as PC mentioned it.
Are anti depressants really going to be more good than harm?
I'm seeing the doctor tomorrow. Its not just the girl, my family life is terrible, I'm trying to work out what to do with my life, after rehab he said he would do anything to help me but just two months down the line and my dad treats me like a piece of shit, talks to me like garbage...waste of space, be on benefits all your life, the best thing you could do is say goodbye, he even said he wished he never visited me in intensive care so I could be put in some kind of accommodation. I could walk at any moment with £2000 ($3000) in my pocket but got to stick it out. He doesn't know that I have this stash of money I could call his bluff at any time, and even though I'm going through hell and at my parents house at 29 its because its safer here for me!!! I feel I'm in a house where I'm not wanted, lonely, depressed, Theres a whole host of things causing me to feel like shit and cry most days.
Do I opt for anti-d's?
I don't like their side effect profile. ESPECIALLY about reducing libido. Possibly even permanently I've read. Sex isn't everything we had, but in regards to the lady I more than satisfy her in that regard (by her own admission and reactions! Never seen anyone so excited!).
Anyway enough naughty talk,
Is it really a path worth treading?
I'm unsure if I want to be dependant on pills. Though everything is coming on top of me like a ton of bricks, I'm quite sad.
[MENTION=42177]pcmaster[/MENTION] are you advocating their usage? Does it help if you are missing someone and also to help set your goals and make you more motivated in life?