Hello! I'm a 19-year-old girl and...
I am currently very confused...
My first "problem":
About a year ago I fell in love with a guy I thought was PERFECT. Back then he had a girlfriend, so I stood back and just waited for my time to come. We were good friends with the guy back then already, so... the waiting was sort of... good and bad at the same time, if you know what I mean. He and his girlfriend broke up last fall because they didn't share any similar interests. I have to admit - I was pretty happy about it, because... I thought now I could show him how perfect we'd be together and... slowly move in to his heart. We started going to the theater and concerts together... as friends of course. We spent a lot of time together actually. And every time we had loads of fun. We both like eachothers company. The thing is - I haven't figured out whether he is interested in me as a girl or not?! He invites me to different places, there's hardly a week we don't see eachother (we live in different cities), sometimes he touches me causelessly, he has said compliments to me (not the way I look though, but... compliments about my singing or jokes or good ideas, but also my perfume and things like that), he cares about my opinion in different dilemmas etc etc. Is that a sign that he... only thinks of me as a friend? About 2 months ago I was more certain, that these are all signs of strong friendship, but... right now I don't know anymore. It seems a little bit different... But I'm afraid to ask, because I don't want to ruin our relationship.
My second "problem":
Since I've had a huge crush on the guy in my first problem - let's call him A - I've always thought of him as someone really perfect. And more then 2 months ago he actually seemed perfect. Now I'm not that sure anymore. Sometimes I've had the chance to see his arrogant side and... he's a little vain and irreverent and... I don't know... it seems to me that in a girlfriend he's looking for... more outer-beauty than inner-beauty. And when I started to realize it, I suggested myself to look for a better guy. And so I even did a little. I sort of rediscovered an acquaintance from my high school - let's call him B. We had been flirting with B a little back in high school and when we met again 2 weeks ago, it seemed he still was interested of having me as a girlfriend. We've been chatting a lot during the last 2 weeks and... I really like him. I liked him back then and I like him still. I know that B is not perfect and I have never expected that from him, but I sort of know... or at least I imagine, that I'd be more happy with B. So the "problem" no 2 is - if A finally has realised, that I'm the one for him and lets me know and at the same time I know that B would probably be better for me than A, should I still go for A or should I choose B? I've been waiting for A for a very long time and... to think that I just... waisted that time..., but then again... the more I get to know A the more I see, that he is not as perfect as a saw him to be at first. Maybe I should not choose neither of them? I do like both of them, but... I don't know...
I feel the need to point out, that... I'm not desperately looking for a boyfriend. I've been single for over a year now and I'm not complaining. It has its assets. I just like both of the guys and... something inside me tells me that now would be a very good time to reconnect with someone again - I'm ready for a new relationship and two good guys are there for me to choose... Then again... a month ago I made myself a promise that I'd stay away from guys 'til the end of the year and if A would let me know before the end of the year that he liked me more than a friend, I'd make an exception for him... Maybe I should stick to that promise, but then again... as I pointed out before - I'm not sure anymore whether A is really the one who's worth waiting for.
My story was probably very confusing and a big mess, but I hope you understood at least some of it and could give me a little advice...