My love life has been a failure ever since. But let's just start with last year, I've been involved with 3 guys, and none became serious. Always the same thing. They like me first, I reciprocate, they go away. Okay, so for the first two (not at the same time), I was starting to fall just when things fell apart. I was being very careful and was still sorting my feelings. So love was not really there yet. For the last one, it just happened. I fell, and I fell hard. He hardly even talked and saw me, but I was in love, at the same time I couldn't get rid off the fact that I'm just waiting as usual for the other shoe to fall off. I've been always in it for the real thing, never just to play around. I want someone to give love to. My intentions are in the right place. I began to think that maybe I'm the problem. I ask them, so that if there's something wrong with me or how I handle romance, I could work on it. But they always tell me that I'm fine. I have several suitors, never ran out, modesty aside. But I just can't seem to like those who court me. People say I should just go out with one of my suitors. But somehow, they just don't meet my standards. Though I know they're sincere, and they're very persistent.
This is actually about to drive me nuts. I don't know what to do. I'm tired, really
I divert my attention to other things, but my thoughts always wind back to love.
I'm 18, by the way.