i have been in love for real only twice in my life. my first real love died of cancer. that was almost five years ago. the second guy i ever fell really in love with, justbroke up with me yesterday. some people would think im acting stupid. but what they don't understand is that i feel like my world is falling apart. he's the love of my life, and i wanted to be with him forever. but now, i'm not, and its tearing me apart. on top of that, i think i may be pregnant. what if i am? i don't want to raise a child alone. i have no idea what to do. on the outside, it seems normal, but if you really get inside my head, you'd see how bad i am taking it. i cant eat. i cant sleep. i am always tired. i just want to quit school. i don't know what to do to make the pain go away. it's just there. eating my soul, from the inside out.