Sorry man but I need a break is code for I want to meet other people.... being the one and only of someone is often not the best advise! We all are human and there are few people who won't feel they have missed out and try outside the relationship....(IMHO)
I wanted to tell her everything, maybe if I'd been able to, we could have lived differently, maybe I'd be there with her now instead of here. Maybe... that would have made the impossible possible. Maybe, but I couldn't do it, I had buried too much too deeply inside me. And here I am, instead of there.