So, my ex and I were together for 2 years when she suddenlly broke it off 2 months ago. She said she was not as happy as she used to be and that I had become too lazy and inactive (complacent). We lived together and were about sign another one year lease and she said she felt trapped if she did so, and moved out. She said she wasn't necessarily ending it for good and would be open to hanging out in a couple of months to see where it went.
We went a month and a half NC before she broke it with an email and we have been emailing/texting/IMing since then, almost every day. Her friends have told me she misses me and she is depressed (and she admitted this to me as well in person, crying). We work together, so I run into her around the office fairly often and am gettingt the vibe that she still cares but is scared to admit it (to me or to herself) as she left me very suddenly (embarrassed, essentially), has a good deal of pride, and probably thinks I have moved on (I haven't given her much reason to think otherwise about what I feel/want, though I DO want her back).
Does this make any sense -- would pride and embarrassment cause her to keep her from admitting her feelings to me or to herself? At first, I thought allowing her to think that I accepted the breakup and was moving on for myself was a good way to get her curiousity/interest up (she definitely misses me, so it was successful to some degree), but now I wonder if it is something that would hold her back from initiating a conversation or even allowing herself to display any feelings towards me in any way. To back that up a little, we will make jokes back and forth via email (very light and friendly, obviously we're both comfortable) and then when I catch her eyes or pass her in the hall at work she acts like we are not on speaking terms and either looks the other way or refuses to make eye contact, as if that would give her away.