I just went from one problem to another one.
I have been in a bittersweet relationship for the past 11 months with a girl who lives 2000 miles away. We only spent about 3 weeks of that together. I'm 18, she's 17. She is my first girlfriend. We had our issues. her parents were super strict, did not approve of me, and did all that they could to limit our communication. She also wanted to remain abstinent until marriage, while I did not. While I wanted to respect that decision, it did make me miserable sometimes and she felt awful because she was hurting me and felt that I must not care for her.
Despite all that, we truly loved each other. We had even talked about staying together forever.
Things had been getting steadily worse, because of distance, her parents, etc. Earlier today I was feeling particularly down, and let slip that it was because of our ever-present sex issue. That was the straw that broke the camel's back. She broke up with my by leaving a voicemail, and is going on vacation so she won't even be able to talk for a bit.
We both agree that we still love each other terribly, but can't decide whether to keep in contact or not. We thought maybe there was a chance we could get back together later if things were different and she was a little more independent.
Two things.
1. should we cut it off completely, or stay friends and hope things are better one day?
2. how should I feel about this? I've never lost someone this way before, let alone been dumped in such a harsh manner. Did I really deserve this, and will I ever be able to trust her again? she did break my heart in a particularly unceremonious way, and I'm a little bit pissed...