My ex broke up with my 9 months ago. This 9 months has been very tough for me. I was very depressed, low self-esteem and went to therapy, even suicidal. I tried to move on but still till today I still miss him very much. How sad is that! I met with him yesterday. A very emotional meet. And it didnt turn out well. Finally, he said something like we cant even be friends, no point to still in each others life, and need to cut everything off. That is good for me maybe. But deep down I feel like I just cant wrap up with the idea that he will disappear from my life. . I know I need to pick myself up and begin a new life..I really need help..