Hey guys, please excuse the essay but i'm at a loss here!
Basically, I lost my girlfriend of 2 and a half years about 2-3 weeks ago due to my lack of 'trying' or 'effort' in the relationship and she's found another guy (who was one of my best friends) who she likes and has kissed several times. He ended their 'thing' a few days after we broke up cause he felt terrible and promised me that they were done with (they didn't do anything whilst we were going out by the way). anyway, me and my ex made up and we were on speaking terms and she seemed to be into me, she was making all the effort to contact me and talk to me and the rest and i responded briefly and playfully.. it felt like she was trying to win back my affection. anyway, 2 days ago she revealed through indirect conversation that this guy had ended their thing again and she was upset and i went mad because they'd both said that they had already finished before ^ and i said some things that hurt her and also said i wanted to cut contact for good. they had hooked back up a bit after they first ended it and now he'd ended it again for good, just wanting to be friends. so essentially, the situation as it stands is that i'm not talking to her and she's not talking to me but we're both single. any other girl i wouldn't give a shit about but no matter how hard i try i can't get over her, she always liked me way more than i did her in the relationship and we had a great relationship but she always tried harder than me to keep us going. now it's the reverse! haha, i didn't realise how much i loved her till we ended, and i really really need her back and i feel like i can get her back but i don't know how best to go about it! from reading shit and my general incentive, i feel the best way to go about stuff is just give her space for like a month or so before making contact and hopefully she'll realise what she's lost.. but should i apologise now for the stuff i said 2 days ago to make things civil between us and then cut contact? or should i just pretend to have totally moved on and wait for her to make contact and then start things off again in a month or so? sorry if this massive paragraph makes for incoherent nonsense but i'm tired and keep getting distracted! i know most of you will probably say to move on because that's what all my friends are saying, but i love this girl more than anyone and i literally can't get over her, i need to at least try my hardest to get her back for my own sake!
thank you so much in advance for any helpful replies, it means a lot