We were never exclusive. We both got out of break-ups and before we met each other, we made promises to ourselves to grow into the person we want to be before we dated anyone else.
Just for the record: When you want to "grow into the person" you want to be before you date... it means you don't **** someone which stops you from growing into a better person but rather stagnates you at the emotional deficit you were at when you decided you wanted to grow.
Now that we've cleared that up. Stop seeing this guy altogether. Go cold turkey withdrawl which includes zero contact via any means. You need to rehab from your addiction to him.. it's not love... love doesn't look like anything you've shared here... love is reciprocal and its not angst inducing and it doesn't stop you from growing as a person.
Its not "other girls" that have fuvked up your self-esteem, it's settling for men who want your vagina but nothing else that has fkd up your worth.
Stop settling. Ditch guys that just want to be your friend, ask the right questions and quickly get rid of men who have lots of female "friends" that they keep talking to and hanging out with... stop having uncommitted sex... get yourself a good toy and make it your best bed buddy until you find yourself a decent guy that doesn't even have the word fvck buddy in his vocabulary.
You are your own worst enemy.
He said, he would need me to trust his feelings towards me and whatever happen is going to happen with us,
if you're going to fall for that line of bullshit then put a disclaimer on it and tell him that you'll not be having sex with him anymore while he decides whatever happens, happens with you. If he loves you, then he'll stay with you and date you and give up his need to be single for you. If you accept his bs and continue in the status quo then you give him ZERO reason to advance your relationship from ****-buddy to something exclusive and committed... which is what you need to be happy.
Last edited by Wakeup; 24-07-14 at 02:46 AM.
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