How can you say you were his "booty call" if you never actually had sex? What? He came over and you blew him? Maybe you can clear that up.
... And don't feel bad about him being your friends, friend and not yours... I suspect that as soon as he asks her to blow him (?) she'll be placed on the same shelf he's placed you.
There is a valuable life lesson gleaned from your experience with this douche you are mis-placed pining away for in that you now know that having uncommitted sex with someone who flirts with you is NO WAY to garner your self worth. Unfortunately right now, you are letting your ego take a hit by erroneously thinking that the attention of this clown (or any other clown just like him) is where you have been gauging the value of yourself. Well, stop doing that. Stop thinking that he's so god-damned important that it makes you feel like shit when he takes away his attention. He's just a twatty boy who you did sex stuff (??) with or flirted with you in superficial ways. He's not anything for you to punish yourself over.
First thing you need to do to change your mind-set is to stop considering yourself as having been "betrayed" or some kind of victim because you are not. You volunteered for everything you did with this guy and if you wanted only his friendship then you should have told him to cut out the bullshit, that friends don't **** one another or flirt or even ask to ****. If you wanted more then just ****ing him, if you had thoughts of romantic feelings for him then you should have told him that before you got involved more then being platonic friends.
Those are lessons learned. (even if you had to have them pointed out to you). Now, stop the victimhood, shake yourself off, take him down off the pedestal and get on with your life and always remember: If you don't want to be just booty, THEN DON'T BE JUST BOOTY.
... And for fk sakes stop the thought process that being a FWB is a step up from FB.
In both cases is just about the sex and you've just found out that you can't successfully compartmentalize sex as just being sex. Stop thinking that it is a sign that someone values you. When a guy values you, he'd never ask you to get sexually involved with him without courting you first and showing you in action that you mean something more then the act to him. Wait for a guy to show you.
Now. Forgive yourself and stop all contact with him and about him so that you can more quickly get to the stage of indifference to him and anything about him. He's just a boy.
Last edited by Wakeup; 03-02-15 at 03:21 AM.
“The willingness to accept responsibility for one’s own life is the source from which self-respect springs.” ~Joan Didion