hi newbie here, had a read through the other posts to see if there was any advice i could use but didnt seem like it :/
i had a kind of mutual break up at the start of november last year, mutual as in she didnt seem to care anymore, we had a few rough weeks and she just seemed to give up on us... so i let us end it and regret it deeply, i cant help but think if id of done things differently things would of been different, which i know isnt healthy.
ive tried winning her back countless times, only to fail again n again. its been like 6 months now and im as depressed now as i was then. ive tried to focus my mind on other things like my hobbys and uni, but everything just seems pointless and doesnt make me happy. i want her to be happy, even if its not with me, so ive stopped trying to win her back, im just trying to stop being so depressed i cant take it anymore. ive also heavely drank for the past 6 months, again not good i know.
another reason im so depressed aswell is that this girl was perfect, yeh no ones perfect but to me she was, i loved her, even her flaws. i dont see how i can meet anyone as amazing as that ever again u know. everyone else i have met has been shit ha, prob not good comparing her to everyone i meet -.- sucks aswell how she seems to be perfectly fine and moving on nicely, seems that way. and yet im a complete mess :/ thought she cared more than that
i dunno, if anyone can help or is a similar position let me know. thanks