i have been dating my current boyfriend for nealy 12 months! i fell head over heals in love with him even though he is 19 years older than me! i had been single for 2 years and was enjoying single life. he came along i wasnt interested in him for ages we were friends but then he showed his interest in me we started dating and i fell for him big time!
we both fell in love we both said this is the one! however we have had problems! his ex was still living in his house they are good friends! it took me ages to come to terms with it! everyone knows about us except her who i believe knows just doesnt want to admit it!
know i have always had a problem with this because i feel like she is hanging around incase he still wants her! they are waiting for the sale of the house becasue they both obviously want thier share!
anyway its starting to get me down but not in the way you would expect! i went through the whole jealousy thing and now im going through the whole i dont care thing! we plan to live together but i just keep asking myself is this what i really want! i feel let down by him because his house sale hasnt gone through sooner! not so much that but more that he hasnt done anything about it! i just expect more from him even though logically i know he cant give more because if he moved out and lived with me while they wait for the house sale he still has to pay his half of the mortgage! we cant afford to do that and she cant afford to keep the house on on her own!
anyway i just keep saying to myself i dont care anymore i cant wait anymore i want out!
but then when i spend time with him those feelings go away! until im on my own again