So my ex broke up with me 2 months ago. I half expected it, but it still hurt a lot. Looking back on it, I realize that I did a lot wrong, and it's going to be hard to fix. While she was breaking up with me, I pretty much made all the mistakes I could've. I just acted really needy and insecure during that time, which only pushed her further away. I contacted her that night to tell her I was OK with everything and I thought it was a good idea. 4 days later she contacted me telling me she had a dream about me and has been thinking about me. 2 weeks later she got involved with another guy, they have been going out since. This is where I made the second mistake of seeing if she wanted to go shopping with me as friends. She said that she would love to at first, but when the day came, she made up an excuse not to go. 2 weeks after that she contacted me again just asking how I was, then again 2 days after that. I responded to these messages, but hadn't initiated contact with her since I asked her to go shopping. She also still carries around the stuff animal I gave her for her birthday, I just figured that would be worth mentioning. then 2 weeks after she contacted me, I contacted her asking if she wanted to go to the boardwalk. This was this week. She did the same thing, at first she thought it was a great idea. But when the day came, I called to confirm, she said "You do this all the time! I hate you and I never want to see you again!"
then I made another mistake, I contacted her again after that. I basically said that "I think it would be a shame to throw away such a good friendship and I hope that we can be friends again one day. But I don't need you. I used to and that was a big part of my problem."
I really shouldn't have sent that, it would've been better for me to just leave her alone, she hasn't responded to that message, and I don't think she's going to.
I really think I screwed it up this time. I was trying to move to fast, I should've just tried to maintain consistent friendly contact for a while before trying to see if she wanted to go out. I'm really just moving backwards at this point. I probably could've saved the relationship had I done the right things early on, but I've made so many mistakes. I still love her and wish that things could still work out. Is this beyond repair?