Hey guys..
Me and my 'ex' now have been apart for only 2 days.. but we said that we have broken up 2weeks ago..
Long story short, she says that she cant be with me because she's afraid to hurt me again if she accepts me back.. her love for me no longer as strong as the love i have for her..
She said that she wants to be alone or single for at least 8-12months... she just wants to focus on work and uni until she graduates.. which is around that time..
Just yesterday i finally accepted that we're over and i also told her that.. however im just lying to myself and i also said to her that i will always be there for her and will wait for her to come back..
the final message i got back from her says the following:
She will never forget me too
I am the most wonderful person
Hope that one day we will cross paths again, she also added 'I really do' not just now... not anytime soon...
We'll focus on ourselves and work hard.
Dont want me to do anything stupid
And also added that she is wearing our first year anniversay watch (a couples watch) and she will wear it everyday..
I am really happy that she still cares for me.. but i just dont know what to do right now.. i've done mybest to try and get her back.. she knows that i still love her alot.. All i know now is that she really needs the time alone and think... (i also know that she really cares about our relationship because i talked to her sister and she said that my ex is trying very hard to go through this)
What can i do now? even though i messaged her saying that I will do my best in everything.. because in the last message she also said that she wants me to do my best and doesnt want me to fail uni..
I really want to talk to her again.. I miss hearing her voice.. what is going on? she misses me, cares for me but doesnt want to be with me?
She sweared to god that she wont be in a relationship for at least a few months.. am i suppose to respect that and wait a few months?
Also there is another guy that likes her and always there to comfort her during our breakup.. Theres one time i told my ex to not talk to him delete his number, so she did.. she messaged him not to call her and guess what he replied? 'he'll wait for her" like WTF!?
my ex told me that she doesnt talk to him anymore.. but im very affraid.. i dont know what she's doing... Should i try and be 'just' friends with her? im very afraid to lose her.. i miss her very much.. all night i couldnt sleep... 3am, 4am, 5am, 6am, 7am, 8 am... I just watch the clock tick as i check my phone every so often to see if i will receive a message from her...
Please help me... i really dont know what to do.... I cant move on, i cant forget her.. and she doesnt want to be with me.. not now... and its hurting me so badly in the heart from now..